62 days

As I pen this blog from the confines of one of the numerous cublicles in my office, I hope a day shall come when I write a blog but this time from the hostel of one of the IIMs .Well , life has been reduced to a recurring series of study sessions/mockcats /classes/study sessions....I feel good to have reached a point where I have scored 97+ in more than just a few aimcats. The last one being the pick of the lot , where I could get into the CL topper's list. However , all is not well...today's aimcat was particulary horrible ...Not only did I screw it , but it made me realise some serious flaws in my approach. It was an eye opener as the test was not particularly a difficult one , only that it was slightly tricky. There were questions planted in the paper which on the onset seemed easy but were too time consuming once you started to do them.
The study sessions I have been having with Sai,Sara, Atin and Manoj have been like a breath of fresh air. Not only does it keep the momentum going but also provides a break from the monotonic weekedays. I feel lucky to have found this gang and we all truly enjoy the weekend meets.I have some 4 or 5 AIMCATs remaining in TIME and about 3 in CL , and I want to make all of these count.I need a few 99s before 15th Nov, to put me in the best frame of mind.
Exactly 62 days remain for the d-day...Its about time I focus singlemindedly on the job at hand.

A week of mockcats

How can people be so inconsiderate..When the news broke out first that CAT would start by October 20 , I was one of the first to ring up TIME and remind them to alter their schedule to avoid last minutes scrambles. At that time they dint seem bothered at al land calmy retorted that , "once the CAT brouchure is out we will change the schedule"..A month later they now realise with little time at hand, they somehow need to squueze in the extra AIMCATS..Result is a totally uneven schedule for Basic AIMCAT Series student like me..On one hand I have like 3 tests in 2 weeks and one the other no tests for the next 2 whole weeks !!! Why dint they distribute it more evenly..Add to it that my CL procmock which is also due this week so that makes it 3 Mocks this week !!!After scoring two consecutive scores in 97.xx range I am looking to better it this time around..QA remains a worry , and I ned to work on my Geometry/Quadratic Equations/AP yet again. I feel to crack the CAT ,just doing a topic once is not enough..U need to do it atleast twice even though u may be doing the same questions..One must be trained to that extent that merely seing a line dividing an angle equally, the angle bisector theorem should flash across...I also need to work on my RCs, I have been floundering in that area whenever I have tried to increase my speed in that section.
Each time I look the AIWSAC thread on PG, I think when shall i get a chance to write into this sacred thread...However , I must not loose focus and waste today, thinking of tommorow's glory..Now is the time to work..
"Karmanye Vadhikaraste Ma Phaleshu Kadachana"

One of the best

A blog about a blog ...how does that sound..does it remind u of something similar..dream within a dream..Naah.... u wanna say cut the crap..Anyways i did get to c one of the most touted films of this era, and I did like it. However , you can appreciate a movie or for that matter any thing only as long as u do not experience something which is even better. I for one did the cardinal sin of watching the brillant "The Prestige" and "Inception" on the same day. And the result was that even though I liked Inception i ended up comparing it to "The Prestige" which would be unfair on the director,simple because the former is a concept of the director out of which he has made out a complete movie while the latter is an adaptation of a fantastic novel.So actually Chris and John had a lot of stuff to play with when they made "The Prestige" ..But as a viewer I tend to treat them as two movies ..thats it ..it doesnt matter where the inspiration came from..And there is where "The Prestige" wins it..I mean from the dialogues of the film, the screenplay , the emotions that the director has been able to eke out of Bale and Jackman is absolutely mesmerizing..A lot of people were critical of the Tesla angle and the sci-fi twist that was added..but again as it can be shown that there was no machine at all and Angier was merely using Root to play his trick..The ending is truly spellbinding when Caine closes it by saying
"Now you are looking for the secret, But u wont find it
Coz ofcourse ur not really looking, You dont really want to know
U want to be fooled"

And another AIMCAT bites the dust...

So AIMCAT 1118 has also gone by, and as usual I " could " have done much better than what I actually did ..Specially the QA section.I still have no idea as to what forces occupy my mind when I am attempting the QA section , that I fail to see the most obvious of things..When attempting the same section after the test I easily managed to score 1.5 times the cut off declared by TIME. As for VA I gave jus 28 mins to it so cannot blame myself, but the worrying factor is that I felt mentally exhausted during the DI-VA sections and did not want to even read the RCs..This has not happened before and was very frightening..Since then I have tried to practice a few RCs everyday so I am in the knack to reading abstract stuff and dont get numbed by it.Tommorow is AIMCAT 1117, hopefully I will fare better than my last outing and get some confidence going.

Life and its irritations

Ok so this one was long due and I was somehow controlling my frustration and irritations but my mid yr was jus one shot too many. Although, I knew what my scorecard would be right from the start and had thus not wasted time to fill in the CPM with all sorts of gibbirish, but I dint knew that these fuckers would even have a prob with that.So the first question that was flung towards me was " How serious are you regarding this discussion " , idiots dont you see from my comments or should i write in bold "I DONT GIVE A SHIT"... Then the session started to take its regular path where in I was again told that I need to be more proactive,innovative, need to increase my "visibilty" blah blah...same old shit and this tym even the fucking wrapper was same"How many people know you ?" .. jesus christ do u expect me to go around beating a drum that "I am Shikhar"..the same thing has been told in every damn session..How much do you know about TS ?The worst thing was when they said about on-floor decorum..with specific mention to the lang we speak ..there was my chance and dint spare them..shot back saying that we should ensure that only English is followed and not some fucking malayam..creamed him by mentioning that we shouldnt encourage someone who speaks in malayam..That put the them in their place and W admitted that it is a take home for them to ensure that local dialects are not used.Only good thing was atleast A agreed that I had excellent comm skills and was among the best in our team..Enuf said..now to my CAT preparation..well its so fucking competitive this world..I keep getting these highs and lows..sometimes I feel truly motivated to study hard and beat the shit out of everyone else and at times when I c comments like IIMs are only for the 90 percenters I feel low...All kinda negative thoughts start to flow..what if I dont get calls from Agood B school..wud I have stomach to fight for one more year..should I try for ISB..my profile is so weakI have heard from everywhere that one should get into a job that one truly loves..a job so dear to you that you are willing to work in it even when you are getting no payment for it..but the million dollar question remains how to find a job which you would love your whole life..Seriously I dont know..I dont even know if my decision to go for an indian MBA is justified considering my experience..Ok feeling sleepy now..tommorow is AIMCAT 1118 and I want to be in the best state of mind for it..

Childhood...

Childhood....isnt it the most beautiful phase of your entire life..full of inncocence,carelessness,happiness,dreams,toys,chocklates..the list seems just endless.The other day I was paying for my fruit-plate at the office cafeteria when this tenner fell out of my wallet. As it swirled in the air a few times before it fell, it sent me hurtling 20 years back, when as 5 year old I had received my first 10 rupee note..At that moment it felt as if I were on the top of the world, as if all the world's riches were bestowed on me.It was the first time I was allowed to go and buy something on my own, though it was a mere pencil..It felt so nice..I was among the "people" who could actually buy something," I " would be paying the money , as opposed to requesting and pleading mom to buy me something( was too afraid of dad :) )It felt great to know I can purchase whatever I wanted and wished..I was literally jogging as I hurried to the stationary shop. Since the counter was a little high for me , I had to climb on a platform and " ordered " that I be given my favorite pencil. The shopkeep hesitated for a minute and then handed over the pencil. I checked it to see if it was in good shape,and having satisfied myself over its quality i dug my hands in my pocket.What !!It was'nt there, I checked the other pocket and rechecked both th epockets, but alas..it was not to be found. Suddenly, it felt as if the world had just crashed around me, I felt trapped..what would I do, what would I tell my parents ?? The first time I was given some responcibility , I had let them downThe shopkeeper probably understood the situation and told me that I can take the pencil and pay for it later in the evening.It gave some solace to me that atleast I was able to take home something..All the way back , I kept looking at the road,hoping to find my treasure, but I could not find it.On reaching home I started crying, and narrated the turn of events to mom. On hearing it , she started laughing and told me that in all the excitement, I had left the money on the dining table itself !!And it was still there, giving me a mischevious smile as if to say " gave you the slip "...
As I write this blog , words from a famous poem by Subhadra Kumari Chauhan run thru my mind..
"Bhag gaya tha mujhe chodkar,woh bachpan phir se aaya"

The trial that shouldnt be

Disclaimer: If you are looking for a serious-literary type of a blog..you are at the wrong page my friend.,coz this is jus any other blog..moreover a release of my pent up emotions.

I dont understand what is wrong with the judiciary/govt of this country..a sob along with 8 others barges in your finiancial capital, goes on a mindless killing spree .You somehow manage to catch him , only to spend several crores on his so called"trial"...and after a totally un-called for delay of almost 18 mnths, when he finally gets a sentence ,you make sure that he gets it delayed by appealing to a higher court of law.I fail to understand that ,if once the sentence has been delivered and its for sure that no court would dare overturn it, whats the point in wasting further time and money. Why could the govt not treat it as a special case and send him to where he deserves to be. Instead , I read in today's ed of the TOI that gove is looking for a "senior" lawer to defend Kasab..Doesnt the govt have the ballz to just shoot the damn skunk...I am sure his colleagues across the border must be having a big laugh over this. Not only this the International Terrorrist Association (if there was one) would have issued circulars that the best place to carry out our activities is India..their sissy govt instead of sentencing you will ensure that their best lawyers defend you in their courts !!!Even Saddam Hussein's trial was of a lesser duration when he was the head of a state, not some terrorist from a god forsaken country and mind you he was only given one chance to appeal against his sentence unlike the 3 which Kasab has at his disposal.Just think about what must be going over the kin of the victims of 26/11. take for example the poor girl who came hobbling only to ensure that Kasab is convicted, cwouldnt it be more apt if instead for spending further on Kasab's trial the govt were to provide her with the best available prosthetic limb...